Now kambo, that's something else, i don't even know how to describe that experience, but i guess i better not ruin the surprise for the ones of you who will do this retreat. The 10 day silence and diet is something i think each of us shall do at least once in our lives, it was cleansing both physically and psychologically. The Ayahuasca ceremonies were beautifully managed by master Sanango and the experiences themselves went from sublime to funny to painful but they were each time exactly what was needed for me to make one more step forward, towards the truth. The Sinchi Runa team are doing a great job and what's most important, they care. "The deep immersion retreat was so much more than what i expected when i registered, it was really what I needed in order to get a change of perspective, to go from focusing on what I need and what is missing in my life towards being gratefull for the many great things in my life and how much I have to offer. Maybe this style of retreat works for many but most certainly not for me. My first aya experiences showed me I can be warm and loving. I came home in a desolate state and suffered from it for a long time.Īll my life I have been hard and tough to myself. When I left I also damaged my car, I was clearly not sober yet and I was very upset. I lacked any kind of empathy or attention from everyone who cooperated. Mikaela listened to me, replied that the maestro just worked that way and left it at that.
Even after I requested my phone back that had been taken earlier to enable a device free retreat, I didn't get a warm response. "Wait until the sharing, then you can tell your story" was the answer. Waddling back to my tent, I also said this to Kameron, who fortunately helped me to my tent. I became so paranoid in my journey that I decided to leave as soon as I was somewhat sober. There is no reason to be nauseous all the time although that can also be a part of aya. Aya showed me my most dark places but also showed me the warmth and deep love I have in me. I have some to know it as an inner journey. Travelling on aya huasca is so much more. The emphasis seemed to be put on purging, purging and more purging. It disturbed me so much that at a certain point I was no longer in my center and in my heart but only in my head. Master sananga made a lot of noise, whistling and singing along with beautiful music in a toneless way. I was very cold because the floor of the yurt was not insulated and the cold draft came through as it was in the middle of the night. If that is healthy ? Knowing that, should you need to throw up a lot, people loose a lot of fluid from their bodies. Master sananga believes people can do without water for a few hours.
Do not speak unless you think you think you are dying and, more importantly, there is no water allowed during the ritual. Being accustomed to a loving, carefully adjusted environment with enough helping hands, should you need to go the bathroom or anything else, I was shocked with all the additional rules.Ĭry and laugh inside not to disturb the other "travellers". The first ritual with aya huasca gave me the worst trip ever. How can you ask people to state that they coocked there own "tea" and why would I sign a paper that states that, if the management feels you need to leave for any reason, they can ask you to leave without refund ? There was no way to make this a point of debate but still I went sort of along. At the end we were told we would get (many) wavers to sign without any further explanation or room to ask questions. There was no personal contact whatsoever. The first encounter with meastro sananga was with the group. Although I was quite surprised I told myself to go with the flow. A small tent for everyone, one dixi toilet and one outdoor shower to share between 11 people. When you hear the bell there is breakfast or lunch and when the gong is heared we gather at the ceremonial yurt. The welcome from Mikaela to all the guests was short and quite to the point. I was asked to wait until the rest of the guests would arrive and left by myself. When I arrived at the resort the welcome was far from warm and inviting. It made me a little anxious but I was ready to travel with mother Aya so I ignored this. I found the communication somewhat uncomfortable from the beginning. "I booked the retreat some months before.